Wednesday, January 31, 2007
ach.
yesterday was kind of a bad day... not good choices, shall we say
tuesday 1.30.07
weight: goal + 10
breakfast: yogurt with honey & almonds, coffee with splenda & skim milk, and vitamins
lunch: palak paneer with rice, 4 duffey rolls (these are the mini cinnamon rolls i bemoaned yesterday), diet dr. pepper
snack: 5 sugar cookies
second snack: tea and a chocolate chip cookie with mom
dinner (at the cheesecake factory with dad): lemon drop martini, 1/2 order of fried avocado spring rolls, 2 slices of bread with butter, 3 enormous fish tacos, and a heineken. no room for cheesecake, fortunately.
what i learned: once i give in to temptation (the first duffey roll), it's over! my will power for the day disappears completely. so it's all about not giving in the first time. also, it is pretty much impossible to eat well at the cheesecake factory.
i also just realized that i am listing my food from yesterday but my weight from today. is that too confusing? i hope not, because it easier for me to remember it this way.
anyway i am pretty depressed today, so we'll see how that affects my food choices.
tuesday 1.30.07
weight: goal + 10
breakfast: yogurt with honey & almonds, coffee with splenda & skim milk, and vitamins
lunch: palak paneer with rice, 4 duffey rolls (these are the mini cinnamon rolls i bemoaned yesterday), diet dr. pepper
snack: 5 sugar cookies
second snack: tea and a chocolate chip cookie with mom
dinner (at the cheesecake factory with dad): lemon drop martini, 1/2 order of fried avocado spring rolls, 2 slices of bread with butter, 3 enormous fish tacos, and a heineken. no room for cheesecake, fortunately.
what i learned: once i give in to temptation (the first duffey roll), it's over! my will power for the day disappears completely. so it's all about not giving in the first time. also, it is pretty much impossible to eat well at the cheesecake factory.
i also just realized that i am listing my food from yesterday but my weight from today. is that too confusing? i hope not, because it easier for me to remember it this way.
anyway i am pretty depressed today, so we'll see how that affects my food choices.
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
a couple of things
first of all. am i fat? i am 5'10" and weigh less than tyra banks (same height) currently does... but when she was modeling she was 126 pounds. i also weigh less than i did a year ago, or 6 months ago for the matter. but more than i did 5 years ago. granted, i was running marathons at that point...
anyway.
the national institutes of health lists the healthy weight range for people of my height as between 132 and 173 pounds (find your own range here). which seems like a big range. ok but so clearly 126 is too low to be a) healthy and b) sustainable. but isn't there some kind of research that says that underweight (or at least low weight) people live longer healthier lives? so should i aim for the low end of this range? should i really try to weigh 132 pounds? i think i might look freaky. on the other hand, i might look like a supermodel. but losing over 20 pounds (oops, close to giving away the actual figure!) seems unattainable. and yet tempting. hmmm.
i think i will first just focus on attaing my short term goal, which is still 9 pounds away. and after that, perhaps i will revisit the question of whether i should lose an additional... several.
second of all. the thing i realized today is that the craving for sweets before you have them is WAY less than the craving after you give in. passing fancy of, oh those cinammon rolls look good, quickly turns into, i have to eat them all. yes, all four of them. right now. sneakily, before anyone else comes into the break room. snarf snarf. and then, once i have fallen, the tin of sugar cookies is now un-resistable. so i'll go ahead and eat two of those as well.
aaahhh!! i should probably address this with my therapist and not you nameless, faceless masses, but why am i so disciplined and thorough and careful and intentional in every earea of my life except food? why am i unable to resist the cinammon rolls?? and why can't i just eat one, like a normal person?
anyway.
the national institutes of health lists the healthy weight range for people of my height as between 132 and 173 pounds (find your own range here). which seems like a big range. ok but so clearly 126 is too low to be a) healthy and b) sustainable. but isn't there some kind of research that says that underweight (or at least low weight) people live longer healthier lives? so should i aim for the low end of this range? should i really try to weigh 132 pounds? i think i might look freaky. on the other hand, i might look like a supermodel. but losing over 20 pounds (oops, close to giving away the actual figure!) seems unattainable. and yet tempting. hmmm.
i think i will first just focus on attaing my short term goal, which is still 9 pounds away. and after that, perhaps i will revisit the question of whether i should lose an additional... several.
second of all. the thing i realized today is that the craving for sweets before you have them is WAY less than the craving after you give in. passing fancy of, oh those cinammon rolls look good, quickly turns into, i have to eat them all. yes, all four of them. right now. sneakily, before anyone else comes into the break room. snarf snarf. and then, once i have fallen, the tin of sugar cookies is now un-resistable. so i'll go ahead and eat two of those as well.
aaahhh!! i should probably address this with my therapist and not you nameless, faceless masses, but why am i so disciplined and thorough and careful and intentional in every earea of my life except food? why am i unable to resist the cinammon rolls?? and why can't i just eat one, like a normal person?
day 2
ok here's the scoop on yesterday:
monday 1.29.07
weight= goal +9
breakfast: yogurt with almonds & honey, coffee with splenda & skim milk
snack: big coffee with splenda and creamer
lunch: palak paneer with rice, diet dr. pepper
snack: apple and lowfat string cheese
dinner: 1/2 of a whole foods frozen pizza (spinach tomato feta)
skipped dessert!
did i really lose 2 1/2 pounds in one day?
i also went to the gym where i ran 5k on the treadmill and rode 20 min on the bike.
what i learned: i CAN say no to ice cream in the evening! also, it is a very good feeling to be "in control" of what i eat- to walk past the big bowl of m&m's, and also the two big plates of huge cookies... i am not a victim!
monday 1.29.07
weight= goal +9
breakfast: yogurt with almonds & honey, coffee with splenda & skim milk
snack: big coffee with splenda and creamer
lunch: palak paneer with rice, diet dr. pepper
snack: apple and lowfat string cheese
dinner: 1/2 of a whole foods frozen pizza (spinach tomato feta)
skipped dessert!
did i really lose 2 1/2 pounds in one day?
i also went to the gym where i ran 5k on the treadmill and rode 20 min on the bike.
what i learned: i CAN say no to ice cream in the evening! also, it is a very good feeling to be "in control" of what i eat- to walk past the big bowl of m&m's, and also the two big plates of huge cookies... i am not a victim!
Monday, January 29, 2007
starting
well this makes blog number 3 for me.
if you are a reader of my other one, you will no doubt know that one of my new year's resolutions was to lose the requisite 10 pounds. since that resolution, i have gained one. so. clearly i haven't been very resolute.
the "literature" all suggests that one good way of losing weight is to write down everything you eat. no more "mindless eating," if you will. so i figure i'll give it a shot. for a while. we'll see how it goes. i guess the question is, when do i post? because it is easiest for me to post during the day. but i will not have eaten everything i will have eaten by the end of the day, by then. hmm. i suppose i could report on what i ate yesterday. do you think i will remember? i can try.
ok so here goes.
sunday 1.28.07
weight: (hah!) = goal + 11.5
breakfast: yogurt with almonds & honey. coffee with splenda and skim milk.
lunch: mediterranean mixed veggies & chickpeas, brown rice, cauliflower. glass of red wine. orange marmalade cake with a scoop of ice cream.
snack: starbucks, grande nonfat cappuccino.
dinner: home-made ravioli with sauce. glass of red wine. more ice cream.
what i learned: ice cream twice is probably more than i need. same for the alcohol. otherwise good- could use some more protein.
if you are a reader of my other one, you will no doubt know that one of my new year's resolutions was to lose the requisite 10 pounds. since that resolution, i have gained one. so. clearly i haven't been very resolute.
the "literature" all suggests that one good way of losing weight is to write down everything you eat. no more "mindless eating," if you will. so i figure i'll give it a shot. for a while. we'll see how it goes. i guess the question is, when do i post? because it is easiest for me to post during the day. but i will not have eaten everything i will have eaten by the end of the day, by then. hmm. i suppose i could report on what i ate yesterday. do you think i will remember? i can try.
ok so here goes.
sunday 1.28.07
weight: (hah!) = goal + 11.5
breakfast: yogurt with almonds & honey. coffee with splenda and skim milk.
lunch: mediterranean mixed veggies & chickpeas, brown rice, cauliflower. glass of red wine. orange marmalade cake with a scoop of ice cream.
snack: starbucks, grande nonfat cappuccino.
dinner: home-made ravioli with sauce. glass of red wine. more ice cream.
what i learned: ice cream twice is probably more than i need. same for the alcohol. otherwise good- could use some more protein.
